What is my audience? Will I be read? Do I keep secrets? How much do I unveil? The private is public? The public is private?
Why is secrecy so important in this world where we want to keep power and progress in the pockets of the Western rich. What do you know already, dear readers. And what do you consider hogsquatsch? How naive are you? What is your capability to think critically for yourself? Aren’t we all crazy advanced with our laptops and smartphones, dishwashers, smartwatches, laundry machines? Isn’t the developed world at the epiphany of advancement ever? What is the value of cultural variety? Not just subcultures.
Will I go all over the place, with random association (à la Freud) as my defender. Yes that’s like me.
How much will I talk about intimacy and sexuality? I want to stay pious and be taken seriously, pose myself as an intellectual artist. But it’s such an important element of power, sexuality. And such an important element of life.
How much anger do I hold, how bitter am I, do I make jokes on paper as in life, or has life been too difficult for me to feel that way on this blog?
Do I listen to rules about writing? Or do I take all liberties of art to express myself? I happen to be a poet, writer (scientifically, diaries), painter, pianist, singer, dancer and with a profession (daily bread) in international environmental law. Do I keep such details secret? Do I keep some persona’s separate? With pseudonyms? X
Do I find the liberties to express what I see in the world, what I feel, what I think. Does the paper invite me in? Does the world still reject me for being too difficult, to rebellious. Taking the hard road where the majority finds their niche in relative comfort. Never doing anything against my principles for the money (luxury position? that I am wealthy enough to be perfectly comfortable without being rich). And hence, I get rejected, it’s not the choice of life so many make, they choose what to invite in and who they are (is it really a choice? It can be).
How personal will I get? What prejudices will I adhere to (hide and edit?) and what will I oppose and find arguments/ persuasions (strange word) against?
Who are my audience? People who already see the world as I do (or largely). Or people who might still want to expand and see newness. Do I dazzle with complex language, or keep it simple for everyone to understand? Is the scientific complex language not a way to communicate privately next to being comfortable with difficult concepts explained by single words. I’ll keep it simple. “In der Beschränkung zeigt sich erst der Meister” (Goethe) – up for discussion.
Anyways, I hope you enjoy! Even if there are just a few readers (oh modesty, insecurity, marginalization of my kind).
Time to express myself!
Protestbird